October 2009
2 posts
I still remember...
Last year, you waited for the exact moment the clock struck midnight.
Such a little thing, but it really made me feel special.
It is the one I remember the most, out of all the birthday memories I made last year,
Even without evidence or mention to refresh that moment in my mind.
I keep it in my breast pocket, near my heart.
It still makes me smile every time I think about it, even now.
Years ago. Today.
I know you don’t celebrate this day anymore, because it makes you feel old.
But at least let me thank you and your mother for this day.
I don’t celebrate the fact that you have to add another year to your age.
I simply celebrate you,
That you were born on this day years ago,
Making it possible for us to meet each other.
So thanks to your mum for giving birth to you,
and...
September 2009
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August 2009
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HIATUS
please proceed to http://letmecounttheways.tumblr.com/ as I’ll be posting there more regularly than in this tumblelog from now on
When it starts to take toll...
I hear them ring, the bells ring at a distance.
Ding. Dong. Ding. Dong.
I walk and I run and I hear the sounds,
Clack, clack, clackity-clack.
I stop. And I look roundabout.
The leaves are stirring, stirring for me
as the breeze I summoned came and
went through this silhouette body.
Stillness and silence, my friends.
I keep to the world of my own creating
and the beat of the drums keep...
“every now and then, I forget. but then, you’d help me remember and...”
– LostInnocence
alam ko mukha akong isang inosenteng bata...
nung isang gabi sa 7-11...
Ako: Ate, isang DJ Mix po. Yung lemon.
Ate sa 7-11: Ilang taon ka na?
Ako: Twenty po.
Ate sa 7-11: Hmm... patingin nga ng ID.
Ako: *pinakita ang naninilaw na ID na may student number na 2005*
Ate sa 7-11: Kailan ka pinanganak?
Ako: October 8, 1988 *kumukunot na nuo ko sa kawirduhang naganap habang inabot na rin sa akin sa wakas ang DJ Mix Lemon. Lumingon ako sa iyo habang nagbabayad* Hindi ako mukhang twenty?
Ikaw: Ayaw mo nun? Tingin nila mas bata ka.
Ako: Sa bagay. Napagkamalan nga akong freshie sa PE di ba?
Ikaw: Bibo ka naman raw kasi eh.
Ako: Tapos wala raw sa hitsura kong nagyoyosi ako. Wala, isa kasi akong inosenteng bata.
Ikaw: Sinungaling! Sinungaling ka! Mapagpanggap!
Ako: Pero ganun ko nalalaman kung sino true friends ko di ba? Kasi alam nyo kung kailan totoo sinasabi ko at kung kailan ako nagpapanggap.
ang weird talaga ni Ate sa 7-11
“Late at night, here is somewhere else. And I wish you were more than my...”
– Iain Thomas
“Everyday gives me an opportunity to see different sides of you.
Everyday, I...”
– LostInnocence
How Do I Love Thee? (a tumblelog) →
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“I woke up with your name on my lips.
It tastes bittersweet.”
– LostInnocence
Kaleidoscope
I savor the words you write— the stories you put up in places public and hidden.
The unique flavor it impresses on my mind burns.
They mark me with warm sensations that flutter softly in my chest.
I let it course through my whole being until it reaches my fingertips.
Then, I write.
Stories of fantasy, drama, and romance.
I write with thoughts of you.
I savor the words that...
Flashbacks of the Moment
As I lie on my bed, reading the words I once wrote for a story of love,
my thoughts somehow found their way to that night and that moment once again.
I replay that scene in my mind, over and over:
The coldness of morning and the warmth of your hand.
The beating heart that is not mine, yet I could clearly hear even from a distance.
The pained expression on your face as you said,...
Life is starting to get too cyclic.
It stopped beating.
Like something died.
Colors trickled through my fingers.
Even if I don’t want to let go,
They, like sand, fell away from my grasp.
It was never this bad before.
What’s going wrong this time?
“Our paths intertwined in the crossroads of life, and for some time we walked the...”
– kage_no_kodoku
A Night in Shining Armor
I’ve been staring at my hands for a while now.
I only have two.
They seem so small.
Too small.
I can’t protect everyone I claim with just this body.
It’s been raining on and off for a few days now.
I haven’t seen the stars in a while, but
we’re still under the same sky
and I feel so small beneath the moon.
Strawberry and Cigarette Smoke
The bitter scent of nicotine lingering on my fingers,
It reminds me of a night and a time.
I was still treading the edge then,
still too afraid to let myself fall.
I smoke strawberry cigarettes tonight.
Hopefully my last box of such things.
And I remember.
What the taste of strawberry means to me,
and the distinctness of cigarette smoke.
Today, however, I held another’s...
“there are times when i just want to cry. it was never this bad before… did...”
– LostInnocence
“Things don’t always work out the way we want them to; and sometimes,...”
– LostInnocence
“My wish isn’t a shooting star, please let it reach you. If everyone is...”
– translated lyrics of Mirror Ball by Alice Nine
a slight touch of intimacy
It’s been a few months shy a year since the last time I really touched origami paper.
The last time was in a world that never was.
This time, it’s because I’ve been trying to decide about giving you flowers when you get back.
I’ve been thinking of buying you a bouquet;
But flowers from shops seem to have a lack of love.
Maybe I should fold you a bouquet of paper...
“I can’t be with you as your boyfriend. But that doesn’t mean I...”
– Tong, The Love of Siam (2007)
Boyce Avenue - Bleeding Love
“Heartbreak is the best motivation”
– Brendon Urie, vocalist of Panic! at the Disco
My heart aches for you
Seth: Why do people cry?
Maggie: What do you mean?
Seth: I mean... what happens physically?
Maggie: Well... umm... tear ducts operate on a normal basis to lubricate and protect the eye and when you have an emotion they overreact and create tears.
Seth: Why? Why do they overreact?
Maggie: [pause] I don't know.
Seth: Maybe... maybe emotion becomes so intense your body just can't contain it. Your mind and your feelings become too powerful... and your body weeps.
[dialogue taken from "City of Angels", 1998]
Kittens
This afternoon, I was feeling down because you’re not around. I wanted to see you so badly that my heart started aching so much. My eyes started to become misty when I spotted two kittens wandering the sidewalk of one of the busy streets in the university. I stopped on my tracks and watched them for a few minutes, debating with myself on what to do with them. I figured I couldn’t leave...
Tuesday
I woke up today, happy that it’s Tuesday.
We share a class every Tuesday, a class I look forward to each week.
But you won’t be coming to class this week and the week after.
How I wish I could take care of you at this time, even just a little bit!
I miss you already, and it’s only the beginning.
“For you to be the angel you are, I will be the devil himself… That’s how greatly...”
– Bettina Elvina
To be by your side...
I sort of decided to quit smoking as soon as possible.
I figured, I should take better care of my body.
I want to be capable enough to take care of you.
A dream of you confined in the intensive care unit has plagued my thoughts,
especially right now that you’re ill.
Call me paranoid. Call me a worrywart.
Say I’m over-thinking things.
But I have a history of night visions...
The Waiting Game
Of course I’m interested if she’s interested,
but not just yet because I’m still not over you.
She said she’d wait for me.
She asked me if I’m worth the wait.
I told her the truth. I don’t know.
I like her so much, but…
At this moment, there’s still something I’m searching for:
a certain intensity called upon the calm before a...
“I want to go out, climb our house and lie down on the roof to watch the stars...”
– LostInnocence
This is something you already know.
You are not seeking signs, nor searching for the words I leave out in public spaces.
There’s no need for me to pretend anymore, for you understand the truth behind my lies.
This is something you already know.
You are the reason behind these words.
Death
If my soul is taken right this moment
and the angel who took me would ask
what I loved best about life, I would tell him,
The moment I knew
how much you love me.
“I pick up a few pieces of driftwood as I walk about the beach. Driftwood scented...”
– Bettina Elvina
Favors
If there’s something to pay, I accept strawberry shortcakes and chocolates.
But you, pay me with smiles.
Call it motherly instinct or whatever, I hate being so far away from you whenever I learn that you’re not feeling well. I get sort of panicked and I try to do things that may seem overly fussy, but it’s only because I worry and care so much.
Maybe the dream I once had before has something to do with my fussiness, especially when it comes to you and your health…
Anyway, get...
July 2009
12 posts
“It is the kindness quite often not seen and not acknowledged that leaves the...”
– LostInnocence
